Slow down and keep focus

YouTube. Tedx Talks.

   I've done some English practice on speaking and listening. I did speaking practice for the last few days with 10 minutes allocation in front of mirror. It was awkward at first. My voice sounds terrible and not stable. But little by little i feel the awkward fade and my confidence to speak raise. I want and will try it maybe within the next month. So i can improve my English active skills in a few times

   In order to do that, i need to disicpline on listening any media with English languange. Maybe entertainment. Maybe a regular Tedx Talks. Just i've done before Ashr prayer. The second thing in this effort is time allocation or spending. I need to spend with minimum a hour per day with  15 minutes writing, 15 minutes speaking, 15 minutes listening, and 15 minutes reading. 

   I want to do the same thing with my Japanese languange learning. But, i still think about it can lead me to burnout. I don't know it's just my perception or not. It feels like languanges learning which to continue to Microsoft Excel, drawing, and reading a book in a row is so exhausting to do in everyday self improvement. Maybe i need to prioritze my goals than do all the things in a row. Cause i think still need to make money with my Grab Driver while i'm making an effort to apply on companies. 

   The Tedx Talks i recently watched is about to slow down when you want or need to speed up by Kimi Werner. It's her experience about underwater life such as fishspearing, free dive and so on. I love the main idea of this talk. It feels like my current situation. I want to speed up on learn anything that i think can give me positive impact on my self development. But, i can't. I can't do all the things. I need to slow down (prioritize some goals) before continue to another some goals. Sometimes i need to make off day to learn skills i want to learn just like today.  Sometimes i need to not to do anything  and maybe just playing Playstation 4. Horizon Zero Dawn or another games to entertaint my self or maybe i can just rest all day long. Only these ways i can keep focus on my self improvement and safe my mental health.